Loyal

Loyal

Katie, our Dog of Unknown Lineage (#poundpuppy), is about as loyal as they come.

She prefers to be where I am at all times. If I’m writing at the dining room table, she’s under it. If I’m reading in my favorite chair, she’s on the floor next to my feet. If I go into a room where she’s not allowed, she waits for me at the door. And if I take a nap on the couch, she sits next to it hoping to be invited up. (I almost always grant that request…I love the way she curls up in a ball behind my knees. Heaven!)

She’s even loyal when I hurt her.

In an attempt to save money and time, I attempted to groom her myself a couple of years ago. All was well until I misjudged and cut her scalp. I was absolutely horrified. But even as I assessed the cut, tears in my eyes, she still looked up at me with those big, brown, “I Love You” eyes, tail wagging.

After a trip to the emergency vet, she came home with several stitches and a Cone of Shame. I felt like I should be the one wearing it. That night the vet assured me that I had not done any permanent damage to her scalp or to our relationship. (Bless his heart…I was a sobbing mess.) Katie was loyal…still is…even though I hurt her.

It makes me wonder how loyal I am when I’m hurt.

When God allows pain, do I still look up at him with my big, green, “I Love You” eyes? Do I stay near even when my feelings feel fractured and my soul needs stitches? Do I stand still while he assesses my wounds? When I know God could have stopped the thing that led to my suffering, am I loyal?

Or do I try to hide in a corner, clutching my wounds, bitter and angry? Do I act as if I don’t need him? Do I pretend he doesn’t really care?

In all honesty, I’ve done some of both.

Of course, there’s a big difference between my actions that night with my dog and God’s actions toward me. I didn’t intend to hurt Katie. It was an accident.

Nothing is accidental with God. Neither the good, nor the bad. He knows the plans.

So, how do we remain loyal when sometimes it feels like maybe God isn’t?

We recognize that lie for what it is…a lie. And we remember who he is.

We trust that he is good. We trust that he is love. And we thank him.

Easy? Not always.

Necessary? Absolutely.

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever. – Psalm 136:1

 

 

I enjoy participating in the Five Minute Friday community of Christian writers. Each week the members of that community have the opportunity to write for 5 minutes about an assigned theme. This week that theme is Loyal

 

 

14 responses

  1. Since I’m dealing with pancreatic cancer and non-Hodgkins lymphoma, the question of ‘why has God allowed this????’ is writ large on my heart.

    What I figure is this, that the Fall of Man set up a requirement for free will, that we have to choose God…and that free will extends to the natural world, and cancer.

    God hates it more than I do, but if He were to step in, it would in general invalidate the free will requirement…it would make it such that there was some ind of secret code or incantation that would bring His favour. Yuck!

    I don’t want that kind of world, do you? And I think, neither does He.

    But what of miracles? I kinda figure that miracles are God reminding us that He’s here; the miracles that Jesus did all had a purpose beyond what was given to the recipient, who was maybe just lucky to be in the right place at the right time, and with the right attitude.

    With this construct, I’m OK with a truly horrible path to death, and pain beyond my worst imaginings. If I thought God was trying to teach me something, it would be, “Enough, already!” and I’d be ready to bust Him in the nose when I saw Him.

    #1 at FMF this week.

    https://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2018/08/your-dying-spouse-508-plagues-of-egypt.html

    • Oh, Andrew…I can’t begin to imagine the pain you go through on a daily (and nightly) basis. Thank you for reading and for writing! Praying for you this morning, that you’ll feel God’s comforting presence each and every day.

  2. Such a good word Tracie! I’m afraid I am not always as loyal as I should be to God. I can learn a thing or two from your Katie! Thanks for sharing, Cindy @ FMF FB page

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